Since I came here I am trying to write something
about the new life,
new Americans, Chinese, Thai, German, Brazilians....that I met here.

It is an evolution speak a new (even if you try to learn years and years..) language.
Communicate as you never have done in your life.
There is no shy, no tremendous fear. It is just necessary to survive and feel part of everything which is new.

I don`t know exactly why I am writing in English, and not in Portuguese if I know for sure that I write totally wrong.
But I think it's because I incorporated this new life.

I came to USA opened to learn, be parte and understand Americans and whoever I would met here.

I am open to this new life.
But the reality is that, there are some people who don`t want to be part of it.
They don`t want to understand and accept that each nationality has it own manners, believes,...

The truth is: no matter where are you from, people are not totally a stereotype of they own country.
People can scare you when they are rude
People can amaze you when they are cute and polite.

What I want to be? Brazilian stereotype?American stereotype?
I just don`t want to be a stereotype. I don`t want to have a label in my head.
I just want to live learning the best things that different people are offering.
Simple and intense.
Just this.

 

I asked the stars to guide me

I`m a little big bird flying without certain of where is the end of the line,

Or where is the beginning!?

I learned that you don`t need to be sure about what do you want,

but it is important to know what you don`t want for your life!

I struggle constantly with this phrase.

 

We born without knowing how long will be our lives

And sometimes I realize that, I don`t want to be living like now, forever.

Although I thank every day for my crazy perfect amazing life.

 

In the end of the day,

The only thing that is important, is whoever you love and whoever loves you!!!!

Crazy vs. normal

A thousand of thoughts
crawling inside my mind everyday
"I live it";
"I don't like it";
"why my life is like this?"
"am I normal?";
"Am I the craziest person of normal ones?";
"I love being different",
"People here are so different";
"Thanks God, my life is perfect, or almost";
"I want to be like that person";
"I am not perfect but I`m happy to be who I am"
.......
And it doesn't stop by here.
It is just the beginning of a crazy mind in this so big and so small world!!!